Weddings & Other Things

So, I'm trying to get this wedding stuff together, and I'm not sure I can. 

I feel like im over stressing about something that isn't as important to others as it is to me. I guess once I get the RSVP's back, I will know where to go from there. But, as of right now, I'm thinking maybe only 50-75 people will be coming. 

I thought with tax return and Andrews raise we could spend maybe $2,500 on the wedding. I got a place (The Italian American Club) who can do exactly what we want for $16.50 a plate, but, if there are only going to be like 50 people there, whats the point in booking a hall. 

Well, Sunday a family friend Chris is coming over, and so is my Mom and my sister and my best friend Tabby. 

Its hard - the more I try to get excited, the  more I hear all those people from my past telling me how this relationship "isn't right". I hear all these people in my head saying "Oh Patty, you didn't really think we would come did you? Andrew isn't even a real man! How can  you marry him?". I know, causing panic attacks and anxiety that really isn't needed right now. 

I don't know that what I do in my life has ever been important, or as important as the other three kids. 

I just really want my family to celebrate this with me. 

I would like to find a minister who is willing to administer vows with Andrew and I at the reception so that my family can be there. But, to be honest, I dont even know that the family WILL all be there. 

Time will tell. 

I hope it tells a good story....