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For anyone reading this blog, there are a list of things you should know about me...
1) I stay at home as I am unable to work due to my depression and anxiety
2) due to some great doctors I am not settled on some meds that are working to help with my depression, but we have pretty much ruled that due to my past, the Anxiety and Panic attacks are just something we will have to work through.
3) I am a Christian Woman with a Buddhist soul. I believe in Jesus and what he did, but I also believe that there is only one God, and he reaches across a span of different religions. The two I have settled on, are Christianity and Buddhism.
4) I lost my Grandmother and my unborn child within 2 months of each other; My Grandmother on August 11th, 2010 and my child on September 23rd, 2010.
5) I love my family very much, and would do anything for them; even if and when they dont feel the same about me.
6) I am an old soul in a young body - I have learned many lessons, gone thought much suffering, and have come out of it still alive.
7) I am a BirthMother, but it does not define who I am. It may have helped shape me into the woman I am today, but it does not define me.
8) I have two other Children; Kathleen is 8 years old and lives with me, Alex is 7 and lives with his father.
9) I am not defined with labels, instead I am defined by actions.
10) When my Grandmother passed, I lost my best friend - point blank. She was the one I went to for everything. My mother was a very busy full time working mom, and she had 4 kids. I had many talks with my Grandmother that I had expected to have with my Mom. She became my strength.
11) Andrew is my other half - I dont use the word better, because neither of us are better than the other. He is a FTM TransGender pre-op male, and he is, for all intents and purposes, Kathleen's father.
I am who I am, and I cannot change for anyone. I only change the way God changes me. If there is someone who cannot handle the changes God places in my mind and/or heart, then I hope that they can handle the new person I am, and accept me, and my changes. But, if neither is possible, then I wish them all the luck, and if our paths cross, I will greet them with love and kindness.
So, this is me, and this is my life.
This is,
Life as ME...
