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sometimes I don't think people realize how hard it is to deal with depression. its like everyday somebody wants to criticize my actions are what I can or can't do.
I'd give anything to be able to get out of bed and work a normal job like everybody else my family didn't have to suffer.
but reality is that I can't and I've tried I've tried so hard that I don't even know what to do anymore.
some days I just want to lay here in bed and cry myself back to sleep. it's almost one o'clock and I haven't even gotten outta bed yet.